go ahead and quote me about that quote

I was reading Work Happy today, as I do, and there was a quote from Tiger Woods about his philosophy on life:

The greatest thing about tomorrow is, I will be better than I am today.

And I realized…that’s pretty much the antithesis of the way I look at my life.

If I’m not good at something now, I feel like a failure. The idea that I might be a better mother in a year? Is practically admitting that I am a horrible parent now. I might as well just hang a sign around my neck that says “Still Not Good Enough.” I mean, I fully anticipate that I will be a better designer in the months to come…but I cringe in anticipation of how sophomoric my current work will look to me by that time (no matter how pleased I am with my skill level now).

If wanted to play armchair therapist, I’d hazard the guess that this has something to do with the fact that I was a “gifted” child, which is just another way of saying that I was ahead of the curve for so long that average sounds like an obscenity. Oh! Can we talk some more about my issues from my childhood? Pretty please? Because there was this one time when I was five…

Seriously, there is nothing wrong with personal growth, okay? I just expect that any growth I require for my life now will have already occurred. Which is totally reasonable, yo.

2 thoughts on “go ahead and quote me about that quote”

  1. Oooh, (belated) good luck with the eval! Ellison is pretty much the same way wrt following instructions (he *can*, but most often chooses not to: this is me, rolling my eyes) and it’s frustrating as all get out. Plus you’ve got about a billion other things going on, so I can only imagine how overwhelmed you must be feeling. Take care, sweets.

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  2. Gawd. That sounds like you’re feeling the same way I’m feeling lately. I guess this will pass, eventually, if we just hang around long enough? Right? Cause I’m dying over here. Yesterday was the Toddler’s psych eval with the intelligence testing built in, and although it went really well for a kid who doesn’t like to communicate or follow directions or accept redirecting, I know she’s smarter than that.

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